阿爸

歌曲：阿爸 歌手：周杰伦/洪荣宏

（洪)我最亲爱的阿爸 我们想要再叫你一声 

唱以前你写的歌 感情放入唱不完

(jay)我最思念的啊爸 换我们唱歌来给你听 

歌声就像燕子 带你回来我们这

(洪)要用什么信纸 慢慢写 我们讲的话你才能知道 

不要不要痛 不愿不愿走 讲你离开这

(jay)我们在长大 守著家 守著那温馨的 烛光下

沉默安静的对话 回头看 阿爸 是山

我最亲爱的爸爸 你给我们一个家 

泡杯名叫思念的茶 浅尝浓郁的牵挂

(洪)我最思念的阿爸 换我们唱歌来给你听 

歌声亲像燕子 带你回来我们这 

要用什么信纸 慢慢写 我们讲的话你才能知道 

不要不要痛 不愿不愿走 讲你离开这

(jay)我们在长大 守著家 守著那温馨的 烛光下

沉默安静的对话

(合唱)回头看 阿爸 是山 

(洪)要用什么信纸 慢慢写 我们讲的话你才能知道 

不要不要痛 不愿不愿走 讲你离开这

(jay)我们在长大 守著家 守著那温馨的 烛光下

沉默安静的对话

(合唱)回头看 阿爸 是山 

无意中听到这首歌， 眼泪就不听话的流了下来。 这首歌会让我想起我爸爸。。。 我也不知道当我长大后， 思念爸爸的情绪越来越多。当爸爸离开我时，我才11岁， 不知道所谓的生离死别，不知道爸爸真的不见了， 这些使到我在那一刻，也不会有过分的情绪。但当我长大后，明白到自己是个没爸的孩子，明白到爸爸是真的去了另一个世界， 明白到什么是子欲养而亲不在的感触，眼泪就一直流下来。在我的脑海里， 爸爸的样子有点模糊了，爸爸的声音也有点记不住了，我好害怕有一天我真的会忘记爸的一切。。。 我很想告诉爸爸， 我活到很好， 挺健康的， 也蛮壮的， 进了大学读书，也很快乐的， 最重要是我还是很想你！ 虽然你离开我已经是11个年头了， 我永不会忘记你抱我时的力量，用胡子来磨蹭我的脸的笑声， 一起吃宵夜的样子， 一起睡着的样子， 你抱高高的时候， 学骑脚踏车的时候， 开玩笑的说我很吵的时候， 照顾发烧的我和叮咛不能吃饭类的食物， 你的烟味， 你打麻将的声音。。。。我谢我爸在他活着的时候， 用他的爱添满了我的童年， 用他的力量来保护着我们一家。虽然爸在我的人生里，只占了11个年头，但你的所有一切，我会用心去记， 我是不会遗忘爸爸的！！爸， 请放心我这个最小的女儿， 虽然我是你第8个孩子，虽然我还有不懂事的时候， 但你请放心， 我会很坚强的活下去，我会替你照顾妈咪，我会很快乐的。。。 当我遇到对的人，我会带他到你的坟前，告诉你我是多么的幸运与快乐，当我有儿女时，我会让他们知道你的一切，我会好好珍惜一切，我会好好的活在你不在的日子里， 爸！！！我爱你！！！

I get a fringe cut and hair dye last Sunday..hrmmm......my mom and sis scolded me because i waste money and didn't cut that much of hair. ^^ Well, though the hair colour  not that obvious because of the lighting in my room. I feel much more younger when I have a fringe cut, many peoples told me that I look tired with my old hairstyle....fall in love with this hairstyle again......but I'll try to maintain this hairstyle until December, and will choose another style again.....

TrAnSfOrMaTiOn !!!

The picture above had shown my transformation within this year! Just realize I did change a bit with my look and  my look now is really suitable for my age....hehe^^. Well, I just thinking of whether cut my fringe just like my picture in January or just keep going with this hairstyle?? Hard decision......hrmmm....

Wish me good luck and continue  my effort to become a better me !!!!

小叮当结局篇

无意中发现这个video， 又哭了。 非常喜欢这个结局， 想起小叮当陪我度过的童年，真的是很快乐。 想起小时候， 剪头发时都手拿一本小叮当， 租漫画时都一定会拿一本， 看卡通片一定会选它。。。。这一切都占满了我的童年回忆。

现在都已经很难找回一本印着小叮当的漫画书了， 自从小叮当叫做多拉A梦后， 漫画的感觉已改变了。 很希望找回当年无忧无虑的生活， 只要一本小叮当就可让我开心一整天，但长大后， 一本小叮当只能当成我的儿时记忆, 也不知道他的结局为何？终于从这个video中知道了小叮当的结局后，心里再也不会有遗憾了^^

let it be ...let it be...

Arguing with your best buddies is the most stupid and dumbest things in the world. I won't argue anymore, just ignore the reply message, just "disappear" for a while, I have no mood to argue who's fault or who's right, no matter what, I don't give a damn on this silly stuff, just let it be......let it be...sooner everything will be ok .....

疯了

尴尬到一个极点， 简直要疯了， 怎么办？？？？？
真的会一直尴尬下去的， 救命！！！！！
老天爷啊， 别让我那么尴尬好不好？？？？

ReFoRm

Life isn't easy, but when you make things easier, your life won't be that harder.

I learn this lessons recently, I knew that some one are skeptic with the way I'm doing, and I won't said they are wrong in their judgement. I accept the criticize and try to reform myself to be a better me.But yet, as i said, life isn't easier. Even though how hard I tried, no body will really bother about it.Actually I am happy with those ignorant ! I rather do my own things without other's complaining and judgement. I want to be a NOBODY, I don't want others compare all their stuff (ec: result, finance, study.) with me. I don't care at all about other's result, I don't bother about other's achievement. Though as human being, we did envy or jealous people's achievement, but in my case, I sincerely believe that all this is just a measurement to judge whether who are they.  No matter how big the achievement he/she had, attitudes is a matters for me.If some one who have big achievement but never appreciate others feeling, this man is sucks.

I try to be a better me from now on, I try to stop complaining, stop arguing and stop thinking complicatedly, my life would be more easier if i have a naive and simple brain. Learn something from http://www.thesecret.tv/index.html, the secret official website: Wherever you go, whoever you meet, and whatever you do, give love and appreciation, because that is your true nature. How do you know it is your true nature? You feel so good when you are giving it!

the most jerky man in the world

This man is sucks, a most jerky man I've ever met!!!How can a man being so petathic? Why he always did some stupid things to hurt others ????


For my point of view, he just trying to show off his life in a "white man" country. Damn, don't forget Australia is one of the participant country in ASEAN+6,this means Australia can be either Western or Asian country.Such a shame for this guy to kept mentioned the powers of WHITE man country, its shown that he is the one who forget his roots, forget how he grown up in this country. Come on, as a man, you should behave with your words, when your mouth kept coming out with this "white man country" words, no ones will respect you, even white man themselves will said you just try to imitate their life, a total loser to forget your roots. Even they are from western, they still appreciate and love our culture and living. YOU?? you just showing how petathic and naive you are !!!!


As a human being, I should tell you:" don't ever appear in front of me!!I'll slap you every times when i see you!!!"

生病记

这个五月好难挨，严重的生病了！！！
原本以为只是普通的感冒， 但我错了。。。。
第一次病到 连饭也吃不下， 没人敢相信我- 超级无敌的贪吃鬼， 竟然没胃口。。。
更夸张的是我竟然说不到话。。
看了三次医生， 吃了超过十钟的药， 才慢慢的好起来。。。。

很感谢妈妈一直照顾我， 姐与哥也很担心我， 还有朋友们的关怀。。。
谢谢筱文与秀湄的关怀和那热腾腾的粥，还有甜甜姐妹花的关怀，
发现生病时有人照顾是一件蛮好的事^^

曾经讨厌看医生，死撑着说自己的复原能力很好，其实每个人都知道我的身体是多么的差。经历了朋友因发高烧而过世，我明白的身体的健康永远比其他事情来的重要。。

担心自己会越来越差，开始注意饮食与运动，虽然我还是有点戒不了喝冰水的习惯，但我已开始减少喝冰水的次数。。希望开学时有个更健康的体魄，好让别人刮目相看^^

变黑了

从这两个礼拜我出游的照片来看， 我真的是变黑了。不相信的话， 请看！！

~~~~~这张照片摄于姐的生日庆祝会（一月) 当时我还是长得白白胖胖的，最重要的一点是我那时的皮肤还是白的！！！

~~~~~这张摄于我的生日庆祝会(三月) 虽然我当天有化那么一点点的妆， 但还是看得出我的皮肤是白的。。。。至少我还是白白嫩嫩的！！！

     但是*******现在的我，皮肤状况是！！

                         

~~~~这张摄于丽敏的生日庆祝会上-(五月）omg !!! 只有一个黑字来形容。。。我要哭了啦！！！   

从这几个月的变化来看， 我无法否认我真的变黑了。 以前我总占着自己拥有很快的复原能力， 以为皮肤会很快就变白了。。。可是随着年龄的增长， 不认老都不行，是时候该保保养了！！！！

ps* 我还是认为一白能遮三丑， 所以变黑了是我人生中的一间大事啊！！                     

无题

好累。。。不知道自己要的是什么， 别人正在复习，我就在赶assignment。 怪自己懒到一个无可救药的地步， 别人都把功课给交了。而我却一心阑珊的慢慢把它做完。

有股冲动要把所有的一切放开，去寻找自己该拥有的快乐。不用读书，不用社交，不用赚钱。。。 但事与愿违， 话说得再好听， 也无法脱离现在的生活。曾经我讨厌长大， 但现在的我恨不得快快上 完这痛苦的课，快点离开。。。或许我会高兴点。。。。

羡慕别人的洒脱，很自己的懦弱。。。。 

Promise to myself

headache again ...... still left 3 more paper to go.....but my body kept complaint that 'her' condition now is super tiring.....I'm not healthy at all due to having a super busy life, though some time i purposely awake at midnight to study, but i know my body tell me the truth--- I really need to take a rest, The rest i mean here is without any burden, any work....just rest and having back my healthy life...I promise to myself  i'll try my best to make my body to healthy back...And friend, don't hesitate to ask me go for massage or facial......cause i really need it for exhausted body .............You all will see a different me on this JULY.......^^

stranger

have you ever remove some one from your MSN best friend list?i did that before.......it was an awful feeling for me, because when you look at the name is appear on the best friend list, and you don't have much feeling to talk with her, and the worst thing is i think she also don't have any feeling towards me...

How did you feel when a best friend become a stranger in your life? Well, i knew it's sound so weird why she became a stranger, when i said stranger means we don't have any interaction, no phone calls and no chatting, even though i know her quite well in the past. But now, I'm assure that i really dunno her.Since we are not that close, hmm...i should said we r not close at all now........so 'stranger' this word should literally suit her.....

People are asking why never heard any thing about her from me?Instead of answer i dunno, i rather choose to shut up my mouth, and don't mention about her...this is the best way to ignore what was happen...Is hard to change what's happening now....I should said maybe this kind of disconnection should pull me away from thinking why, why,why....Even when my friend was asking;"if we are hang out together with her, is it fine with you?" Ouch, this answer should be "fine." and i said you should ask her but not me....

When you are getting old, the thing that happen in your adolescence life will just be a memory. Although she was  a stranger for me now, i still sincerely thanks for the memory I had in secondary school life.....I was being too dramatic that time, and thanks her for all the stuff she did for me and us during my adolescence .....At least, i still appreciate what she done last time........It's time to say GOODBYE, no matter what happen now, still thankful that u had became one of my best friend.........THANKS.....

生日快乐^^

生日快乐。。。一个最真诚的祝福， 心里默默感谢所有帮我庆祝生日的人， 也很开心过了一个难忘的生日^^


  第一个生日庆祝会，是与好姐妹筱文和秀湄一起庆祝的。很感谢他们俩在百忙之中抽空帮我庆祝生日。。。。很开心的一起吃了一顿好吃的日本餐， 还有一个我最爱吃的巧克力蛋糕。感动到要命。。。^^


回到家后， 意想不到姐为我庆祝生日， 买了蛋糕和礼物给我， 超级无敌感动啦。。很久没收到姐的生日礼物， 很惊喜。。姐说买一个比较好的一个bag给我，真的很喜欢那个粉红色的bag, 谢姐啦 ^^妈咪也特地赶回来跟我庆祝。。。真的太高兴了！！

三月七号就与甜甜姐妹花庆祝生日。 吃了一顿超饱的日本餐。也很开心每年都有得与他们一起庆祝， 希望年年都能与他门一起庆祝每个人的生日^^









很开心的度过了我第22岁的生日，希望往后的每一年， 我都能快快了了地与家人和朋友一起庆祝生日与分享生活的点点滴滴^^

2010 Chinese New Year

新年快乐！！恭喜发财！！！
又到了喜气洋洋的大日子，与朋友及好久没见的家人重聚。。。。过了一个很开心的新年 ！！
来看看一些照片吧 ！


回到旧家去，红色衣服那位是我三哥， 阿辉哥哥， 真正认识我的朋友应该知道我有多少个姐姐和哥哥吧！！！^^
迟点再upload我以前的全家福给你们看。。。一定会笑晕的。


在年二十九晚， 在丽敏的家， 原本好好拍照的。。。之后就。。。。



越来越搞笑了。。。。


这张才是经典中的经典， 笑到我肚子痛 。。。哈哈^^


最后， 再来恶搞一番，就有了这张照片。。。。我门真是疯了！！！

希望接下来的新年，也一样能那么开心就好了！！！

CRISIS with direct selling. HATE it !!!!

My friend like to call me "the money wife", cause I worked since form 2, and I got a lot of part time job. But, since last year, this crisis happened, I would really consider everything before I join any kind of part time job!!!

I used to think when I never hurt anyone, other people won't hurt me, but now, I knew that this world is crueler than I thought. I just wanna said when somebody was long lost contact with you, and he/she called you recently, PLEASE bare in mind that they are going promote direct selling soon?

I still remember June of last year, my long lost "friend(suppose not to called her as my friend, she was just my ex-boss) I still remember her face looks like so kindly, and she will help you with everything, and always talk with a polite tone to me, I just surrender to her when she introduce damn much of direct sells stuff...And because of some greedy thinking, I became her downline. My nightmare would never stop since then.



After I became her downline, everything was changed. Her temper was so obvious than before, and she can used some trick to trap us. I won't mention any details about this, but seriously my trust to her would be totally spoiled. And yet, the stress behind all the direct sell, and I knew that I'm not that kind of direct selling person. Don't like the system in the company, although not every agent inside this company was so immoral a professional in their field, BUT, I can said some of them really use some trick to ask people "buy it or save it". I don't want to mention bout anyone...but my upline, she doesn't use any trick to any customer, but just their way to promote the product, I still not get into it....

Since the road show on December, I seriously think that I don't want to continue this kind of job anymore, I rather stand for 10 hours to get my pay, I also don't want use this kind of "trick" to get customer. Maybe I', not that kind of professional, and I knew that I won't step into this field anymore after I  graduate from international relation course. To be honest, my interest is not in direct selling, I don't mean to be direct selling agent in my life.

PS* this is just my personal opinion, no offense to any direct sale agent. But seriously, don't find me anymore...It's enough....and I think I'll check every single detail before I intend to buy any insurance or saving plans after this super annoying crisis....

Caution; You wont believe I was look like that before....^^

I can said i am phobia to cut my hair since i had experience some ugly hairstyle after haircut...But, who will not cut their hair for the whole life?I think No one will do that.Finally, after almost one year, i dare to go n cut my hair....Surprisingly,look back to all my pic, i found out that i was look so different last time. So let's look back my hairstyle in my past, and the totally change look now.....^^


a long neat hair....i think i took this pic when i was 18(so young^^)


when i was studying F6 in VI. look so tidy, i always have this look in school.(2006)


This is the time that our stpm is just around the corner, struggling with all the book, and i totally forget about my hair style..just look at this pic, my face really look like a moon la.....^^(2007)


This is the look after i finish my F6 life, start working as a customer service agent,and this was the first time i perm my hair... I was 20 years old that time..(2008)


I look so mature in this pic...i took this pic at sapura holding....(2008)


I wonder how my face look so small in this pic....and my hair was getting longer after i perm my hair for few months before...(2008)


This is the new haircut before i enter to my uni life...(2008-june)


This is the time that i used my curler to curl my hair....cause i really miss my curly hair last time...(2008-August)


This is the pic i took at some festival...if I'm not mistaken, this pic took in my uni moon cake fes...(2008-september)


don't laugh when u look at this pic, is really short....(2008-October)


This pic i took before 2009 chinese new year.


This is the time that i really beh tahan with my short hair, dare to perm my hair again....(2009-after CNY)


But the curl this time didn't last for long time, due to i perm with the big curl, and this can't stay for long time...my hair are straighten again...(2009-May)


i dye my hair before exam and my hair is really straight that time...(2009-October)


qiang qiang qiang!!! This is my new hairstyle now !!!(2009-December). Finally my look was the exactly suit with my age now....though look a bit childish...hehe^^


i took this pic two days ago...really look so different!!! (2010)

Omg, do you think i was look younger now? or Matured?? hmmm......

Is 2010

Today is the first day of 2010. i have nothing to do in my lovely single hostel room! though i need to do a short assignment to pass up on next tues, but is seems like i am so unmotivated now! yesterday was a new year's eve, everyone went to celebrate, fireworks all around the sky! Instead of celebration, I'm just a little bit odd and stay at my room, without any celebration, without any mood to start a brand new year!

Looking back to my pass, every new year's eve, I always celebrated with bunch of friends, countdown at some hot spot, but this year....is a definitely different situation.My dearly laptop is having some problem, one of the hard disk inside it was failure to function, is been a nightmare for me to start any kind of celebration. This cause some moody mood to me. And yet, when i growing up age by age, I prefer having some a dinner and little chat with friends than being one in the crowded to countdown for new years!

2009, though is my sweetest 21st age year, I'm having a lot of fun, but despite the fun stuff, it was still happen with damn lots of nightmares.

January-celebrated my friends birthday but is kind like we have some gap between us(Luckily, i should thank god that i still able to be their FG).

February- My friend Yun Chi had passed away. This make me tears a lot until now.


Celebrating Chinese New Years with frenz.


celebrating chinese new year with family.


March - Is my birthday month, first time celebrate with another gang of friends(pui mun, Juin Kei, Lai mun, UU, Chuan, Vien, Hui yee and Keong). What happens to the gangs i used to be? Is a hard time for us during that time, no celebration for me, and have a unexpected birthday gift from them, I wont blame them , since we all r having a bad times.


April - A nightmare with a bitch. That bitch was my room mate, her attitude is sucks and being so bitchy to me. I only stay at room when she is not in the room. And i shall go to my best friend room to sleep. The bitch is being unreasonable, writing some ridiculous words about me in her blog, and kept tell others how bad i was ! Oh god, i only been in room for four days in a week only, she still can talk about my bad things. Until now, even i saw this bitch in the campus, i wont said hi or bye! And I'll put her name as Monster room mate !!! Hate her !(p.s is just my personal opinion, don't feel offense if u are her friends!!!)

May - Exam month, busy with exam.....

June - Went to Langkawi with my dearly friends, we have a nickname for ourselves-
"sweet sweet flower sister". and with two f6 friends. We went there by
flight, and is five girls and boys in the trip here. Though is lots of
couple among us, but still we are having fun......^^ .The happiest trip with
friends that i ever have !


July - Started my 2nd year of my study, busy with homework, assignments, activities. And I have my own single room in my hostel. Without the bitch, my life was fill in colour!!

August - Is my SIS convocation ! though i have gone trough some family crisis this
month, but still I'm glad that my sis finally graduated from UM.



September - This is the Craziest month that i had gone trough, busy with assignment till every morning, the sleep hours for that month was not more than 150 hours. And my course mate started call me zombie cause i look so pale that time. A lots due date for assignment!!!And tans of works for activities !!!



October - I was preparing for my Exam. Started from 31st till 11th of November.

November - Finally finish my exam, then start to work! Work for some roadshow, then work as an agent, tuition teacher, promoter ....work hard for the money !! And i have a bad body since then... always muscle ache.... Haizzz....

December - Is a holiday season, resting at home and went to a last minute trip before start my new semester. Went to cameron and melaka in one shot, with the same gangs as langkawi trip. This trip is the most craziest things we have done in our life, trapping in a traffic jam for more than 5 hours to cameron. Then drove to Melaka from Cameron !!! Is a super fun trip with them!!^^ Finally, my new semester was started! But still, i maintain to shopping in bangsar there, and watched a movie in this holiday season. And for the X'mas time, we have bbq at pm house, exchange some gift !Happy enough for X'mas, and still grateful during the new year's eve,although never make any celebration for the eve of 2010, but still get greed message and phone call from friends.^^






Looking back to the whole 2009, is the up and downs year.i wish that this year - 2010, will be a new beginning of my life !!!!