Tuesday, July 21, 2009

secret place


when i try to escape, there is a place i always go to- secret place at my faculty...
i like when no one can disturb me, and i can do what ever i want ...i wondering why this sem, i am getting quiet than before...seems like i lazy to talk or social with others d..im enjoying the alone time than work with others! Maybe i was emo again or just fed up with what the reality call-cruel life....i have such a hectic life-study, club event and teach tuition....sometimes i am so grateful that i able to have so many oppurtinity on my study and my uni....But, when i step forward more, i'll be more worry about every step i've took....

i will escape to the secret place to calm down all my mind...stop being negative minded, and just plan to take everything easy in my uni life...and yet, i knew when i go out from the secret place, i have to face with the reality life again...But still, i am enjoying the moment at the secret place and typing this very freely....Maybe i can use back a phrase-tommorrow is another day.....and i'll change the phrase to every step is another way....if any changes now can cause me any regret feeling later, i wish all this changes can make me become a more matured person....though i'll fall down in part of this changes, and i knew i'll always stand up and said "Im fine" and continue with the journey...

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

想法


人们的关系总是那么的复杂。。。
当别人笑脸迎人时,暗地里是怎样的人?我总是摸不着头绪。。
长大了,连我也开始伪装了。。。开始变得世故了。。。
明白到让人知道太多关于自己的事会带来一定的祸害。。。
有时会想如果自己洒脱点,或许我的生活会更幸福。。
凡事都不能太过执着。。。。需要看开点。。。
发觉到自己真的长大了,开始计划自己的将来,因为我知道时间不会为我停留了。。
想当年,无忧无虑的,天塌下来都不关我的事一样。。。就这样,我的青春岁月也渐渐错失了很多机会。。
虽然我才21岁,但老觉得自己老了。。有点害怕生日的到来,朋友都说我想太多。。。
有时也想耍幼稚一下。。但心里明白,体内的自己已经不是17,8 岁的自己。。。
我防备之心比任何人都强,哪个人一有苗头不对,或图怀不轨。。我总是退避三舍。。。
知心朋友来来去去都是那几个。。甚至有些从姐妹变到现在连电话都不打的陌生人。。
曾经, 自己把朋友看得比什么都还重要,弄得自己总是伤痕累累。。。也加重了朋友的负担。。
经过了这些风风雨雨,不再执着于朋友这两字。。。大家偶尔能谈笑风生, 已经足够了。。。